tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6408249401903210602024-03-12T20:25:17.365-07:00yogini mammaomammahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13875411042254861799noreply@blogger.comBlogger18125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-640824940190321060.post-75039101007766414592011-12-17T00:35:00.000-08:002011-12-17T00:48:08.102-08:00I love my motherI used to say i hate my mother, today i wake up and love her, i love her more than i ever imagined, it is with gratitude and respect that i am here, that i live, that i breathe, that i share, that i aspire, that i heal, that i empower, that i learn how to love her...<br /><br />she was 16 when she birthed me, my child hood was not easy, i am still a child in many ways, rebirthing again this year as i dissolved a lot of old patterns and ran away from paradigms that were not serving my call to love deeper. Nothing could make me more happy than to know today while i feel so much sepperation from my mother and my children as the holidays are encroaching she is with my darling daughters loving them up and nourishing their souls with motherly love in the ways she knows how.<br /><br />I share so much often forgetting how to recieve, or value my time. Today i met with a woman who is going to go on a training in India with a teacher I wish i was going to train with, and it is my gift to know that my sisters are nourishing eachother and supporting one another on their journey, I made comitments and promisses to support projects i'm a part of now in Bali, and until I finish these i cannot go anywhere.<br /><br /> I hear the sound of drums on my computer to Devi Ma, Durga Ma, Kali Ma Laksmi Ma, and remember all the years in Hare Krsna ashram life the gurus told me to not worship the demi gods, but now nothing seems more right thatn to honor the divine feminine in all the ways possible, giving to women through yoga, through love devotion, freeing all these gifts inside i have and serving, and my heart is pounding inside i want to go to india and study Vidya Tantra, sing, serve and study more yoga, but i know i have things i must finish and focus on before i am able to journey there, I want to bring my daughters with me too.. so i will work hard here on tasks at hand and then go home to canada, heal my heart, dissolve and release unrealistic expectations, and respect this land and the people of Bali, for they have much to teach me.<br /><br />I see the repression so rampant in society, and also the divine honor.. it is a paradox...<br /><br />i'm learning to be in the now. learning how to flow with what is, and learning how to value my time, cleanse, detox, release fear, and embrace what is, love it fully, looking back i see so many self imposed regimes i've adopted and not been able to comit to, and now i comit to loving myself and serving my sisters...<br /><br />so deeply inspired to commune and gather in sacred sisterhood and dissolve the falsity of my ego and rise up above the ashes above the control men have had over me and love more fully...omammahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13875411042254861799noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-640824940190321060.post-49296568852960361462011-11-30T03:58:00.000-08:002011-11-30T04:16:30.613-08:00BaliWow, so its been a while since I wrote, noticing how much i write to friends every day i realized i was ready to dive in again..<br /><br />Funny my blog is called yogini mamma.. i don't feel much like a mamma right now as my kids are half way across the world spending time with their Dad in their community in the back woods of canada.. and i'm in Indonesia for the third time in three years fullfilling some commitments i made working on some amazing projects as a volunteer for the most part. I'm about to start volunteering with some rad organizations again, such as Bhumi Sehat midwifery foundation teaching some prenatal yoga, volunteering at Clear Cafe teaching yoga to the staff, volunteering with some sweet little preschoolers at the Yayasan Spring School making some yummy foods, and i hope to volunteer again with an orphanage for that has been such a blessing of an opportunity to give love to children especially when mine are so far away and i feel the call of our mother earth asking us to serve deeper than ever thought possible..<br /><br />I wake up some days and wonder why i'm here, why did i choose bali.. the first time i was drawn here for love and a passion for living foods and training with my dear friend Madhava Ananada at Villa Gaia retreat center, which was wonderful, uplifting, entertaining and rather eye opening in a lot of respects at the contrast of wealth and poverty in this country and island of tourists and tribal village people. The second time I came for healing with my daughter Laksmi, my heart was broken and i was inspired to bring her here to go to a fabulous school out in nature and spend some much needed one on one time with her, we stayed 6 months and that was really hard to be away from my younger daughter, i had some inner work to do, work i'm still doing... work on loving myself and accepting myself, diving deep into my practices and creativity, getting overwhelmed at times in the insanity of it all and finding balance within the demands i put on myself and my family's needs..<br /><br />Now this third time i come alone, i thought it was to manifest abundance, but i realized when i got here the abundance was allready flowing within, i didn't need to 'seek' it outside myself, I'm blessed with this next two months to dive deep into being alone, being of service to community, absorbing in self study, practice, mastery, and surrender fully into this time, to this land, the people, the smells, the air (which is sometimes nauseating to me) the ceremonies, the rituals, the traffic, the stark contrasts, the art, the culture the music- it all has much to teach me- and much i can share with my beloveds when i return.. I hope to bring home with a deeper sense of presence, gratitude and respect for the land and people i share this life with, for i am already only here a month and rather home sick... seeing all the moms babies husbads, weddings, and joyous holidayers, while i dive deep into this awakening to my lifes deepest purpose beyond making gourmet raw food and teaching yoga, it is coming into mastery of motherhood.. into divine femininity... this time is already reminding me that everything in life is temporary, we come here alone and leave alone.. and what a great gift it is. I've been called to be a mother, and my responsability to my family is shifting in another direction now, less from providing a home and shelter and food on the table, as thier loving father has taken the reigns on that for the present moment, but how important it is to love oneself, to cultivate love for ourselves is not egoic, but an opportunity to worship the divine, something i missed understanding many years growing through the Bhakti Yoga movement, now i'm taking my practices a step further, in the study of Tantra, and its exploration of what that sacred connection to source and to ones own spirit truely is, I am greatful for this time, greatful for the opportunity to dive deep in the healing of a heart that ached to be loved, and to soak up this time for self love.. Bali is full of all the amazing light and darkness that life unfolds, there is a dance of balance here..My mission is to cultivate the abundance of inner strength.. and share it through my teachings and what my teachers have bestowed up on me through the simple practices that helped inspire me to live more fully.. so ya that's where i'm at today.. i hope to keep writing every day, i like it, the words just pour out ... and after the stillness and the quiet silence falls into beingomammahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13875411042254861799noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-640824940190321060.post-50909245230091870822010-10-30T09:36:00.000-07:002010-10-30T10:08:29.848-07:00the journey continueshow i came to be ing here now... aspiring to be in service...to the Divine Lila <br /><h6 class="uiStreamMessage" ft="{"type":"msg"}"><span class="messageBody">My life was spent also rather unhealthy.. and in a constant search for balance, I still seek balance..within our living foods community and Easter Medicine, Herbal Ism, Wild craftin.. it is an enlivening and undying passion i have to dive deeper.. I feel compelled to share my story becuase this subject matter is in essence why i'm alive..<br /><br /> I give respect and deep admiration to those who constantly inspire me as living examples of what it means to love, learn, and to share and care on this journey of awakening to our fullest potential....<br /><br />I believe very strongly in supporting future generations of children to awaken to their inner awarenes.. and to shine brightly .. because I was a child that was not fed nourishing food, and i was an adult trapped in a child body for along time trying to fill that need for love with food, I am a mother trying to figure out how we can undo this conditioning and teach our children to love themselves and what they put in thier boddies and how they walk in this blessed opportunity to be in this life.. I pray that children everywhere and adults too, but mostly chidren i am concerned about now, that they become aware they are noble beings and they deserve to live a life of love.<br /><br />It has been through my journey with my own inner child and my children that i see a shift in consciousness being made and at time in history where it is catastrophicy the time to change old paradigms of complacenecy.. and go back to our roots.. .For me personally, I've allways felt a spiritual connection with food since i made the choice to give up eating dead animals.... I remember when i felt the emotions and moods in my foods for the first time --i was 16 and my friends at school were going vegan.. i watched a presentation at lunch by the 'earth savers' who are also known as The Vegetarian Association, they go around educating people about vegetarinaism, health, nutrituion, slaughter houses, the reality of the industry, and pharmacutical indoctrination.. capitalism on food that poisons, awareness of gmo's, and they offer support for those wanting to change but don't know what to do.. I was profoundly moved and shaken up watching the slaughter houses of cows being cut open alive, chickengs being debeaked, kept in abomanable conditions, pigs being cut open alive, it was intense.. I began to cry and wanted to puke.. so i I went vegan... joined Peta, Joined the Earth Savers, went to potlucks, and protests, and tried to figure out why people were so misled.. and how these companies could get away with murder and death and people just ate it up.. and was very perplexed with what to do ..for a while. .not knowing what the heck i was doing but knowing i ethically felt on the right track..I found myself diving into it deeply, loosing friends, going finatical..lol... (like so many of us raw foodists and spiritualists do too.. ) <br />I went to college in Vancouver and lived with a bunch of vegans and political activists and was exposed to some amazing ethnic vegetarian cuisine.. and was totally enlivened by studying sustainablity, art, expression, political, social and environmental activism.. And Burn out ensued.. I realized i couldn't save the world, i could save me and be an example, and I needed to nourish me..or I would be useless.. So when i was 19 I retreated to Vancouver Island where I spent time meditating and cultivating connection with my First Nations roots, and taking shelter in my spiritual guide, My aunt.. who was a musician, world traveller, artist, First Nations scholar a humanitarian activist, a PHD and Masters Scholar in Ethnomusicology, Art and Language..she was also part of the Bahai Faith. I cultivated a deep taste for spirituality in that time, going to Pesian Feasts once a month, observing fasts, reading poetry, and I perservered with my vegetarianism and seeming 'health food' fascination.<br /><br />Soon After I married a Vegetarian Chef, joined the Hare Krishna's after attending their Sunday Love feasts that were mouth watering and delicious, and the kirtan and worship melted my heart.. all of my friends were vegetarian and happy, i felt in heavan.. So i began to allow dairy back in. and found myself in spiritual bliss through kirtan and yoga, but after about two years of eating dairy, wheat, sugars.. and a carcinogenic blend of oils.. in the name of 'offering it to god' with love and devotion i knew something wasn't working for me presonally, in my flora.. <br /><br />When i gave birth to my first daughter and was about 200 pounds.. thanks to what i call emotional eating.. i was so happy to have a child to share my life with and teach the ways of living i believed in, But i also realized I had to be a better living example, and that filling that hunger for love and affection through my tongue and stomach.. leaving my body not feeling so optimal and inspired.. was not what I wanted her to learn from..<br /><br />I soon after met some zany Hemp Activists and Vegan friends through the Rainbow Gathering Community, and I was really excited to see vegan ice cream and learn who to make nutritious and delicious mylks full of protein and calcium but without Soy... because by this time I'd been vegetarian almost 5 years and Soy was not really doing it for me.. I learned the ill effects of soy, dairy, and sugar, and realized I had a long way to go. In Vancouver at a Summit for Spirituality and Sustainability.. we were serving loads of ice cream, it was going off, the hemp milk and hemp seed were in high demand and the Hemp Seed Co-op was inspiring many.. It was in this web i found my partner of 7 years and we began a journey into healthy living eating, worship and HEMP milk activism... The Co-Op involved delivering raw seeds to the mainstream, and teaching people how to make sprouted mylks and how to use blender bicycles .. totally off the grid and on the road in our van! Soon after we moved to an intenional Farm Community owned by the Hare Krishna's .. where i was previously living in the ashram and rasing my daughter as a single mom, And it was not long after going back there to 'live off the land' when the hemp seed ran out, we were milking our cows, building gardens, and I got invovled with the dairy again, making cheese, yoghurt, butter, you name it we had it every day.. and it was really hard for me to see my godbrothers and sisters poisoning their boddies.. it was hard for me physically, and to fall victim to it too was hard to watch.. and to watch kids hooked on sugar, Adults hooked on sugar, I remember feeling so much internal conflict.. i remember my kids eating kale out of the garden and spinach and people looking at us in shock.. We didn't really feel like we fit in with our wanting to not eat dairy sugar and wheat in a commune type setting, and we booked it to Salt Spring Island and cultvated our own farm life, Seed Saving, wild crafting, studying plant medicine, sustainability and ecovillage living..I remember one summer being pregnant with my second child, my friends were reading Natures First Law by David Avacado Wolfe, and drinking their urine, riding bikes and making superfood balls and travelling to india.. I was greatly isnpired at that time.. seeing how much vitality they had, and how it was really working for them, and living on an island you start to think a lot about where food comes from where its going and what is sustainable.. We were trying to raise funds in our communtiy for a village of like minded people... an affordable village, one based on sustainability, health, wellbeing, and even we had investors andsome really good feedback, but as the economy and our famliy shifted, and grew.. we left the island due to what i call 'gentrification' of those without the capital to live the life of the wealthy idealists.. I dove back into meditation and our spiritual life determined to live off the Krsna Farm Land again, this time taking shelter in a certified organic family... farming up in the interior again. .. hot, dry, not much water, not much money, dependant on fossil fuels, forest fires.. dairy, wheat, sugar, kirtan, devotional ecstacy but intestinal trauma for myself and my daughter.. a repeating cycle in my journey.. food.. vitality.. spirituality.. becoming dissillusioned by the scarcity of resources and the intensity of winter, We moved to Vancovuer, nomads we are.. and I was fortunate enough to be managing an Organic Produce store in Vancouver, getting a huge abundance of organic food overflowing at my door.. and ordering local and exotic abundant fruits and vegetables, It was my job to source produce, culitivate enthusiasm for local farmers, maintain relationships with chefs, farmers, wholesale distributors, deliver top quality live fresh food to the international travellers and the locals of Granville Island, I learned so much about how far our food travels.. what is really sustainable, and how much food is wasted.. i began donating boxes of food to shelters, friends, and co workers..<br /><br />Our family had to go to Ottawa due to an illness in our family.. and i met Matt and Angela Stokes on day three of ottawa journey, at an outdoor Raw Festival, it was captivating, to meet them and see their journey from weight loss, emotional eating, learning about plant medicine , juice feasting, sharing, inspiring, sourcing, endless learning, and co creation. My family became re-inspired.. and Living foods entered my life in a big way..<br />soon after we travelled to California to a spiritual retreat to visit my Gurudev and our family, I knew it was going to be hard to eat the food, and low and behold i met Raw Food enthusisat Hare Krishna devotees and Yogi bhajan Disciples who RADIATED.>. like i mean GLOWED.. and it was for me so transformational to see these radiant thriving people, sharing and touring around with the knowledge and blessings in their life that they were cultivating.. I went home to Canada Inspired, to read, to study,to really un learn and experiment.. It has been a challenge to adjust what i call my conditioned 'healthy junk food patterning'.. especially with children.. and especially with understanding my emotional eating.. It was in a yoga training understanding basic ayurveda, that the connection with body mind spirit took over.. For the past two years it has been in witnssing and seeking out revolutionary people that tell thier story, living their life's deepest purpose.. I would have to say that watching the integration between spiritual and emotional awareness in food preparation ~ I became transformed in my consciousness.. suddenly i had some answers to this dilmea.. of watching those i love hurt their body temples.. I have made this past year a journey in which i wish to learn and share these teachings, surround myself and my family with this vibrant life energy force that wants to live.. and nourish, and heal.. <br /><br />Its been people like you Stacy, the Boutnko's, David Wolfe, Madhava Ananda, The Bliss Bar family n California, Angela and Matt Monarch, the RawFamily, Bruce Harowitz, Gabriel Cousens, Stewart Blakey, Daniel Vitalis and Sarah Maria.. The Reinosheks and the Juice Feasting.com site... Brother Echo, The Kootney Tribe - Rysheak, Johnnie, Carmen, Simone, many many more.. but Most of all I would have to say that The Cafe Bliss family in Victoria - through the grace and blessings of The Tree of life, and through Heather and her family.. our bigger family -, Bronson. Harmony, Tyler, Serina, Cosmo's family, and all you beautiful peeps you know who you are, just by providing a sacred space for this journey, a laboratory, where I felt totally excpeted with my break out skin, my two kids, my endless need to travel, and learn, i feel so inspired on this journey so very deeply, because we all come together as a family.. a rainbow of colors, to support and love eachother, no matter what we disagree on or agree on.. We offer it with love, we are out there shining so brightly.. following our bliss.. living our life's passion, and radiating that forward no matter what.. we all are unique in this life.. we have our own way of doing things, unique to us..like rays of the sun.. i see the common source.. though we may not all agree on ' the perfect diet' i see a love for life, a love for living a life which we want to share and pass on to our children .. I am also deeply inspred by my Yoga teacher Jenni Pritchard, who with steadfast dedication and open heartedness also strives to serve and shine brightly to those willing to recieve, this is a great gift.. where they can reach our fullest potential to love and nourish that life force.. but it takes the support, and willingness to dive deep within.. to offer what we find with love.. and to continue humbly learning from our expereinces, from our reflections of eachother, our ancestors. <br /><br />Our children deserve a healthy future, a healthy concept of themselves, wellbeing.. Our chidren of this earth are our great teachers.. if we can show them to love this temple in which their soul can rest, and a connection to source.. this planet and beyond.. that will be the greatest gift i could imagine possible.. All of you have been my greatest inspiration to want to continue on my personal journey to find a balance of health and well being.. I'm not feeling in any way perfect, or enlightened, but i feel through the association with those who are tuned into something higher vibrationally, we can live a life of compassion for ourselves, the planet, our future, and dance and sing in the co creation of that change we wish to see in the world.. I'm done with living in the past.. and ready to dive into the present opportunity we have so much wealth and abundance on this planet, and so many are starving, so man are malnurished because we are mis informed.. dumbed down, cheated, and lied to..<br /><br />So i dedicate my life to a love for living foods, yoga, a cruelty free diet- not just a food diet, but what i live diet.. a diet of awareness.. living waters, a diet of love, and a cohesive balance with child centered living. I write this very long testimonial as i am about to embark on a journey to Indonesia with my daughter, and possibly India after, we are working on sharing and caring our passion and love for healthy living and share this with those who may not have access to it.. I'll be volunteering in schools and making some videos about our journey.. . I hope that through my daughters life and my personal ongoing transformation.. we can help encourage and nurture other kids and families on a path of living.. and a way of living that is in balance... not necissarily 100% raw but 100% LOVE>>>. I do believe in addressing what doshically works for the individual constitution to serve a higher purpose.. free of shame and guilt..free of right's and wrongs...<br /><br />I testify here that I am dedicated to continue to explore this path with my family and make this way of living more accessible to those who do not have the resources or support to thrive..Because while I see people dining in fancy gourmet restaruants, i also see street kids eating mc donalds and other kids eating sugar water without the alternative available in their 'reality' As Amma said, it if it is their karma to suffer, it is my Karma to do something about it.. and As my Srila Gurudev Narayan Maharaj who has been travelling the world non stop until recently for many many years spreading the message of love of god.. and God is LOVE>> He has imparted many teachings to me, what sticks out most is.. :'Serve the divine Goddess, serve eachother, don't criticize, and offer love and respect to all.. this body is temprary, a vehicle for the soul, chant and be happy, do what you with love and affection....' like a father calling out to his child, i love you.. love your self.. love eachother.. <br /><br />As I write this he is 90 years old, and in Delhi being treated by natural mdicine doctors, his beloved daughters and sons.. light workers, plant medicine , living foods, ayurveda and superfoods for his advanced stage of Cancer of the Colon.. my heart weeps and i long to bring him some E3 live and probiotics.. So now more than ever as i witness the call to attend to this healing crisis on this planet.. It is time to RISE UP >> !!!<br /><br />We are so fortunate to be alive, and to share this time and space..Thank you for inspiring me greatly on my healing path, i pray we can continue to share and care about plant medicines, Organic Living, Cultured living, suprefoods, longevity, surthriving, cultivating sustainability, revolutionary ways of being.. Throughout this year so many teachers crossing my path something profound has transpired, a deep awakening to want to share with my children and the worlds children in a peaceful joyful, non threatening way..<br /><br />I had wonderful experiences in Indonesia travelling through cacao plantations, eating in fancy raw food restaurants, finding myself deep into my yoga practice, feeling what it feels like to be totally out of balance and remembering i can access it.. teaching classes, taking classes, reading amazing books, and sitting in expensive lecture halls, over priced online shopping stores for super amazing products.. I realized.. that the information transmitted opened me up so deeply to divine love.. and that i want everyone to be able to access this, not just those with the cash flow..<br /><br />I learned it is never too late.. that we have choices, we can see our body and life as a temple where the divine sits.. that we are divine, that is our birth right, that the earth gives us everything we need. That the walls of illusion .. the fear.. the lies.. these can be conquered through sound vibration meditation, through food meditation, through concsious living.. the more we embrace this love.. the more others will be able to recieve it, for to give is truely to recive.. ..<br /><br />How fortunate it is that many of us are now waking up, with 2012 prophecies approaching.. the time is now and in the present moment allways to shine brightly.. we have the power to keep living, keep cleansing, keep sharing, keep learning.. and keep on keeping strong!! We are a time of Healing Crisis on this planet.. 20 % of the worlds population uses 80% of its resources. we don't have time to waste.. it is our birth right to love.. May we all rise up to shine our individual heart song.. and inspire and support eachother in through nutrition and nutrition of the soul's need to be love<br /><br />Namaste, and thank you for reading my very long and never ending testimonial of how i came to be where im at.. :) </span></h6>omammahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13875411042254861799noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-640824940190321060.post-46223458287871128362010-10-27T17:59:00.000-07:002010-10-27T18:46:37.507-07:00testimonial of the life i'm aspiring to live ~ devotional bhakti shakti ~It's been a while since i wrote anything.. oh my goddess... the winds of change are flowing sweetly..looking back to my last post.. i realize the desire to serve living foods yoga and kirtan led me from bali, to nelson, to sunshine coast where we danced and created alchemy majik with chocolate and superfoods.. to salt spring where we dove into nature and played in the alchemy studio and with herbalists, farmers, and artists....where after i landed in Victoria with ocean by my side, yoga vibes.. Cafe Bliss family embracing me with open arms.. and i adore love, and miss them all.. all the kirtan friends.. the kirtan was majik.. My daughters went to thier dad's in Ontario for summer.. was so fun for them, and nice for me to focus on the many blessings in my own life.. Madhava Ananda joined me on a treck to Bhakti FEst.. and the kirtan was incredible.. the yoga vibes, community, living foods it opened my chakras.. super foods in the desert, meeting more enthusiasts..found myself playing with so many beautiful people sharing, caring.. chanting, breathing, and embracing.. Eventually not being with my darling daughters started to take a toll on my heart.. I found myself in Los Angeles at the Radha Govinda temple.. it was so fun to meet some more like minded souls, wake up at 4:30 am and pray chant, dance, serve food.. and take in the Santa Monica and Venice beach energy. Jai Uttal, Shakti Chai, raw chocolates, long boarding, yoga at Bhakti Yoga Shala, and Exhale were all highlights amidst the ocean walks, jappa and seva mission.... I was determined to serve my Srila Gurudev's templein some way, but also noticing how the inner time to reflect was also a blessing, and to simplify my life by living in a temple environment had me looking around and realizing a lot..<br />Upon hearing news of my Srila Gurudev being in Stage 4 of Cancer of the cholon, the tears rolled down, and a deep sense of longing to serve and nurture healing in our community and sangha developed deeper.. I have been feeling very contemplative during this time as thousands are flocking to visit him, delivering remedies, and going on Parikram in Vrindavan ( this s a pilgramage every year in the holy village in Vrindavan where Krishna was born and lived.. it is the most holy place to visit for me..and I have yet to go.. ) a longing developed, a longing to serve and to give up my attachments to selfish desires...<br /><br />I left la and came to Ontario to be with my daughters in their new house that thier dad purchased.. it is a suburban town house, and it has been quite the culture shock, feeling so isolated and strange sense of peace.. nurturing my daughters, and being so greatful for this time. when not in Barrie visiting during the week, I go to Toronto on the weekend and cultivate sisterhood, kundalini and bhakti shakti with my dear darling freind who is from bali, and is a healer to say the least.. it is like i never left bali i often think to myself!! so after two weeks of being here and there and taking in the sites and accessing the nomadic opportunities, my heart called out for going home to BC... and my heart called out to go to India and serve my guru and sangha as well as study more.,... and my heart called out to go to the tree of life.. but my heart has really really been calling out to focus back on the Bali plan.. now i'm enwrapped in a business plan, service, education, food, and life in Bali.. i can hear the sound of the trees blowing, the farmers in the rice feilds, the birds, it just feels like home, safe and farmiliar. . and with amazing schools for my daughters Laksmi really wants to study music, dance, art, yoga and fun with food, and i see how beautiful our healing journey can be there in bali.. Revati wishes to stay with her dad for a few months and will come visit us later, she' s really enjoying being wtih her dad, and I embrace that, they have a strong bond and are very patient.. I am feeling rather blessed and fortunate we all love eachother so much and can allow space where it is necessary.. it will take a little time to get things set up so she can visit us in a few months.. :) I am working on a little trip to India for January.. if all goes smoothly. .. you know what they say.. man makes plans and god laughs..<br /><br />one thing is clear right now.. as we are approaching 2012 and as things are shifting, my saturn is returning, the need to live more sustainably and devotionally is upon us very strong..<br /><br />I realize i do not wish to live here in the west at this present time with my children, we have so much to learn from other cutlures, in how to live, how to not just survive, but surthrive, how to give back, through serving, learning, exploring. Ancient wisdom is available to us, and the potency of mantra and worship has changed my life,<br /><br />I wish to cultivate this Bhakti Creeper, to continue my studdies in yoga , in India, really dive into those gifts My Gurudev has given me and to offer what it is that has inspred me so much..So many gifts from so many teachers have sprung into my life.. it can be almost overwhelming when you are enthusiastic to do so much in life.. but the balance is there when i remember what is truely important..<br /><br /> So here i set out this intention for a healing voyage, it is my vision to move to Bali with my daughter and build a healing space for devotees to come to., to have kirtan retreats, yoga sanctuary, space for women and children to express and grow together in harmony..<br /><br />Through my time at Satyagraha Ashram, and visiting the Palenghi School and Green School, I am convinced this is a ripe place for my children to learn and grow...and it is now time to get off my mat and into the world and align my offerings..<br /><br />Children inspire me every day, the more i spend time away from them, a part of me feels empty.. and the more i spend time with them i realize how much they teach me and how fortunate i am to share this path with them... and all the kids we meet along the way.. so here's to the never ending adventure and the eternal bliss within us all!<br /><br />I'm so glad to be alive.. and to share it.. every day i am learning to let go anything, or any fear, holding me back form fully embracing divine love...omammahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13875411042254861799noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-640824940190321060.post-9246801478399712002010-06-23T15:21:00.000-07:002010-06-23T16:04:56.687-07:00living shaktifeeling the many blessings around me.. and inside..<div>went from victoria to nelson to bali to nelson to sunshiine coast to salt spring, and now landed back in victoria, radiating around the cafe bliss family and yoga shala sanctuary.. </div><div>so greatful for every breath, every step, every opportunity to love and share in creation</div><div><br /></div><div>the chanting of sacred mantras -the holy names- are keeping my heart centered, i take shelter in this rasa.. amidst the seeming chaos.. with breathe awareness, resonance and union .. </div><div><br /></div><div>lots of recipies a brewing and classes to teach this summer! </div><div><br /></div><div>with all that is happening in the world at this very moment, i see no other thing to do than to spread love, raise vibrations and heal .... staying positive through the storms and taking it all in as mercy</div><div><br /></div><div>All Glories to the divine lotus feet emenating from Goloka Vrindavan and within </div>omammahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13875411042254861799noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-640824940190321060.post-31677273627795949502010-02-01T21:24:00.001-08:002010-02-01T21:27:02.463-08:00on the roadi did it.. i got all tasks accomplished thus far and now it is in gods hands<div><br /></div><div>passport appy off, pick up wednesday and leave thursday at midninght! flying accross the world to another culture another land, a heavanly paradise!</div><div><br /></div><div>playing with my darling godsisters and their daughters in vancouver .. so fun..</div><div><br /></div><div>mysore practice at 6 am with adam http://thepracticeplace.ca for thenext three days.. going to soak up the inspiration as much as possible.. and radiate the inspiration to the mountains and beaches of indonesia's hindu capital</div><div><br /></div><div>live food, kirtan, exstatic dancing and adventure awaits.. </div><div>so greatful for this opportunity!</div>omammahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13875411042254861799noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-640824940190321060.post-81546762926597723252010-01-22T23:17:00.000-08:002010-01-22T23:29:19.736-08:00bali boundi am one week and a half away to the highlight of my year.. even though its' just begun,<br />not only am i turnint 29 on the 29th, but i'm going to BALI to work and learn with a brother who has been doing the live food artistry since i was a teenager.. so i'm totally stoked, going to sit under an aloe vera plant and suck her juice, chant, dance, sing, get some sun that doesn't come in a bottle drop form.. and love love love it..<br />this winter has been exceptionally hard trying to stay raw.. i moved from a super supportive network of live food enthusiasts, and my yoga community, and my body and mind are telling me this is a challenging place right now for this spirit in this body..<br /><br />not only am i going to engage in a learning and growing adventure, but we will be having some devotional focus, so itis like service to my beloved spiritual master.. i wished to go to india this year, but my laksmi deneros just didn't quite cut it.. and i don't want to go to india for three weeks, wouldn't be fair to my kids either because they really want to come..<br /><br />anywho.. not there yet, but almost..<br />some of the most interesting monetary arrangments are under way for my arrival..<br /><br />1. made a huge beautiful box of live food goodies dehydrated to 105 sprouted prior and totally satvic, no onions or garlic,.. mailing to a friend who is a godsister, balanisian woman who lives in Toronto!<br /><br />2. sold my harmonium i just bought before coming here to nelson three months ago... it is an heirloom that belonged to a famous devotee maybe ifanyone actually reads my blog, which i'm not sure they do but thats' ook.. you may have heard of bhaudauk.. anyways, his daughter contacted me and is buying it, and she lives in the uk..<br /><br /> ok so that coversmy plane ticket..<br />now for the rest<br /><br />4. ended up doing some telemarketing for a friend for a website about internships and travelling abroad.. not really telemarketing because we're just getting people to submint blog entries, but it's kind of neat to research about interning and travelling when that's kind of what i'm doing!<br /><br />5. a little itty bitty bad loan for another couple hundered,<br /><br />6. it is quite possible i may actually make a few dollars from the month of yoga i've been teaching part itme.. but unsure because i'm still paying off my insurance fees.. but at least i'm insured so you cant' sue me ( not that i thought you would)<br /><br />7. someone from nelson town who moved to bali, who happened to talk to my friend who i'm staying with wants me to bring to bali some super greens, and is willing to pay me!!that's super cool<br /><br /><br />so it all comes down to this.. fly or bus to vancouver, then will i be able to get my passport expediated in 24 hrs, get my ticket that will mean going to seattle.. on a bus, stay in vancouver for three days and not spend any money, that will be the challenge, i may need to fast and cleanse hardcore for the next few days..because all the money i have is booked for my trip.. it's going to be a low budget eating wild eddibles trip, just what i need to clear my head of mundane sorrows and stress.. going to wake up at 4 am and do yoga, chanting, and then engage in the live foods seva!!<br />i still think it's a dream, pinch me..<br /><br />no it's not a dream!<br /><br />oh and did i mention i get three weeks off of my darling children who are beginng to drive me to kurmasana and pranayama for stress relief on a more regular basis!!!<br /><br /><br />praying for all the pieces to fall into place :)<br /><br />jai sri radhe!omammahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13875411042254861799noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-640824940190321060.post-54953515232313133852009-12-30T22:07:00.000-08:002009-12-30T22:23:52.378-08:00my head is pounding, doing some detoxing from reishi mushroom tea.. i honestly didn't know what i was getting myself into, got to go easy on this stuff.. apparently it helps flag off candida..yippee, but it is also flagging off my yoga practice, <div><br /></div><div>managed to have a lovely raw day today, with some chanting, snow, and am now enjoying reflections on the year.. what a year.. what a rollarcoaster for this momma..i won't go into detail, but lets seee... </div><div><br /></div><div>broke up with my partner of 8 years, </div><div>went raw vegan, fell off and on several times, feelilng better on raw foods than any other foods, with the occasional bowl of cooked fluffy quinoa..</div><div><br /></div><div>had three amazing visitors of angelic presence from my srila gurudev visit me and have darshan wtih me and my family.. namely Syamarani Didi, Manjari Dasi, and Raghuleka Dasi oh and a bunch more but those were the highlights that sparked my spiritual fire</div><div><br /></div><div>graduated from two yoga teacher trainings, one was intense physically, spiritually, and mentally, the other emotionally intense.. . both life changing and transforming.. </div><div><br /></div><div>my daughters and i moved to the mountains, which i now am almost regretting because i left behind so many beautiful people i love and miss dearly as well as epicenters of meditation and live foods.... it was a rash decision in the mode of passion, so i am living the time out.. till april 30th and then who knows</div><div><br /></div><div>my daughters are finally going to a school i feel totally in line with.. the nelson Waldorf school has fullfilled my educational intentions for my children socially and artistically</div><div><br /></div><div>i'm planning to go to bali and work at an Exstatic dance Bhakti Yoga and Live food retreat... if i can get my pennies lined up, and who knows if all goes well maybe i'll just move there..</div><div><br /></div><div>oh and one more thing this year, i not only fell into deep deep heartbreak, and still feel the effects of that, but i fell in love once.. he lives in spain, so it is kind of like a super duper long distance relationship.. that maybe non realistic, though our phone calls and emails are going well, not making any progress on my spanish, but his english is improving.. and werd is he's coming back in the spring... who knows, could be a dream</div><div><br /></div><div>so the plans for my business are kind of on hold due to cleansing, detoxification from candida, and teaching yoga.. as well as raising two kids on my own.. </div><div><br /></div><div>taking it moment by moment, trying to not get overwhelmed by the challenges that await me every day, it is a hard winter for me, I'm not going to lie and say everything is bliss, i mean i know I'm eternally full of bliss and truth, they are full of bliss, but i left a really good situation to come here - my cafe bliss family- and it is proving to be a slow and steady up hill in these mountains, my kids are very emotionally distraught with their father gone, we have had many a battle emotionally, I sure am happy they have made friends here -more than in victoria, but my friend count has gone down, and my sense of belonging and meaning is feeling a little tired, my lack of concentration doesn't help, partly due to the candida and partly due to the many things i'm trying to do at once.. </div><div><br /></div><div>so i pray that 2010 will be prosperous and bountiful, full of opportunity to grow, love, serve, and create the life i want to live</div><div><br /></div><div>one thing that sticks out for sure, is that i am in separation from my beloved spiritual master and my beloved godsisters and brothers, trying to find a place where we can be together, chant, dance, create, and blissfully co-exist.. i hope it's not just inmy mind's eye.. but a tangible reality</div>omammahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13875411042254861799noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-640824940190321060.post-3074969308542312362009-12-14T00:01:00.000-08:002009-12-14T00:08:34.835-08:00nomadic ways move my soul, i realize i move every year.. that it is my deep connection to seva and spirit seeking adventure.. now i am settling my darling daughters into waldorf school here in nelson, what a delightful place, i wish i could go! and listening to raw mom summit and scheming on how to get to bali asap.. like krishna stealing pots of butter and blaming it on the monkeys.. i am trying to manifest so many things via bhagavan's eternal abundance..<div><br /></div><div>this year has been a journey of healing and looking inside.. sometimes we don't like what we see, and project it onto others.. i realize that it is all a reflection, a mirror of our own consciousness..</div><div><br /></div><div>so i am trying to teach as much yoga this month as possible in this little sleepy snowy party town.. I've got my sights set on high association and learning, fully embracing the offerings of gurudev.. he is offering me so much i just have to make the surrender and effort happennn... </div><div><br /></div><div>so it will be a yogathon of love and devotion this month to help manifest my dreams and find some inner peace and bliss to share with the world.. looking forward to what is in store for me and the girls.. adventure awaits, the snow falls, the dehydrator is humming full of bounty..</div><div>the fruit basket is full in the dead of winter, on one of the darkest nights, and the veggies in the fridge are calling us to juice and drink and honor.. </div><div>the super foods are screaming out for joy and the hills are allive with sound of rawsome bhajans..</div><div><br /></div><div>this holy day season we are not celebrating by giving gifts of consumerism, but the gift of yoga and chanting and remembering the lovely blessings gurudev has given us all to remember...</div><div><br /></div><div>i will be teaching a free yoga class on christmas day at the shanti studio in support of the local womans shelter, and i couldn't be happier, my daughter is delighted to join me, laksmi andanda the goddess of giving and abundance.. that is her nature, maybe we'll go tobogganing on her birthday two days later.. that would be so lovely of a time to share.. </div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>many blessings for a sacred solstice and a happy holy days.. may we all remember the spirit of giving back to the world we share</div>omammahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13875411042254861799noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-640824940190321060.post-34327428073480529942009-11-10T09:14:00.000-08:002009-11-10T09:20:32.039-08:00bali and india boundi am blessed with an amazing opportunity to serve sri guru and my sadhana..<div>i have been feeling for a while now that i need a breather from canada and momma life to focus and go inside my studies more.. to really just devote myself to healing and my raw food chef learning extraVEGANza.. so i asked my friend madhava and he invited me to come to bali and help him work on some raw projects, also there is a raw yoga community / teaching center which is like first class and i am totally stoked to be planning a trip to bali in February!!! oh my gosh i'm elated actually, the pictures are incredible, and to have an opportunity to serve my god-brother as he works on setting up a raw ayurvedic chef school would be divine.. i also like that india is so close, i will be working with a multi level marketing travel company too to make some extra funds as well as teaching yoga, studying yoga (about to take a kids teacher training workshop in vancouver next week) and i'm going to pump out some raw goodies for the local co-op soon soon soon.. i am day dreaming constantly of going, but also have to be present and love my darling daughters and care fro them, as it has been a lot of challenges lately in the home front, attitudes are flaring up and i see how all the changes have affected the little darling kiddies, they miss their dad too, so it will be nice that he is going to come here and spend time with them while i go on my yogi mission, who knows maybe bali is where doors will open to live one day, there are a lot of good opportunities to be with devotees and work with raw foods and yoga scene, just have to stay sincere...</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div>omammahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13875411042254861799noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-640824940190321060.post-43771117239902302732009-11-07T19:32:00.000-08:002009-11-07T19:36:51.035-08:00give it to me raw community saves my dayso i've been blogging here for a week now, i know it will take time, iknow not everyone is going to run and comment, and i know no one may be reading, but it sure feels good to spread your thoughts on the keyboard.. <div><br /></div><div>i started a blog on my give it to me raw account and was amazed that within like two minutes i sparked a converstion and intellectual dialogue about candida busting and raw food living that proved to rock the waves.. 45 comments and some really good advice and direction..</div><div><br /></div><div>i'm going to pick up the whole body ecology diet book at the co-op as soon as i can get my hands on a few extra bucks.. it is a good book i read it almost front to back, and i crashed out flat after feeling i didn't have enough support, then i shared it with my raw buddies and they all came pouring out answers and warm fuzzies.. </div><div><br /></div><div>so here' s a link in case anyone is reading this blog and wants to check er out.. </div><div>http://www.giveittomeraw.com/profiles/blogs/candida-and-raw-food-living?id=1407416%3ABlogPost%3A1167335&page=5#comments<br /></div><div><br /></div><div>i have been wasting away a lot of hours on line lately and am going to retreat into cleansing yogi cave of wonders only to pop out for some one to give it to me raw.. because that is what i find faith in.. </div><div><br /></div><div>namaste</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div>omammahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13875411042254861799noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-640824940190321060.post-32856973959971061642009-11-06T12:32:00.000-08:002009-11-06T12:54:14.548-08:00<a href="http://www.greenforlife.com/musicvideo.htm">http://www.greenforlife.com/musicvideo.ht</a>m<div>this video is soooo cute and funny, my kids keep asking me to watch it over and over and over again..</div><div><br /></div><div>so i stayed up really late last night, after cholon cleansing i seem to have some energy and desire to study and research cleansing more in depth.. anywho i was reasearching about travellin in india and eating raw.. most of the information is really skeptical becasue of the pollution and toxins and bad bacteria living inside the produce which were fed by poor water conditions.. </div><div>but however, bombay is apparently one of the best places to go to eat raw, and i have read that gabriel cousins says there are sadhus in the himilayas that are eating raw and have for long times.. something to consider if i go to mysore in february.. i will go for the coconuts like crazy for sure.. </div><div><br /></div><div>got up early today refreshed, amidst my late night, drank water, and did my primary series practice, then followed it with some E3Live for breakfast after pranayama, laksmi joined in the yoga practice with me.. primary series is so invigorating but i also am becoming more and more of my strengths and weaknesses.. trying to find a balance on the left and right so i read the patanjali yoga sutras and light on life by iyengar.. which always puts things into perspective, i opened up the sutras to a text talking about the importance of repetition.. i firmly believe this, even though i do the same practice every day it is never the same, and always expanding, grounding, and uplifting to have that regulation, just like chanting, just like living foods lifestyle.. once you find something that works for you it works!!</div><div><br /></div><div>i then ventured off to shanti yoga studio, the much talked about yoga studio in town, which didn't quite appeal to me at first when i took a class there months ago while visiting.. mostly because i teach and practice a very specific style of yoga and it isn't even a style, it is traditional.. anyways.. i spoke to the owner for almost an hour and a half, about yoga, life, teaching, seva, running a studio, different aspects, styles etc.. it was kind of intimidating, she's really into anasura yoga, which is interesting but not my path.. and she pointed out that her teachers are all veterans.. and that new teachers are not that high on the list.. she was kind enough though to offer me to teach a mock class next week sometime and she would assess my ability to teach,, ahhh so nervous now.. someone who's been a yoga teacher/practitioner for 25 years.. yikes.. intimidating, but hey you got rolll with it and have faith in yourself so i agreed.. also i was pretty bumbed out that she can't have kids yoga in her studio because of her windows..??? which was really strange.. so i'm going to have to find another space to teach in.. which is good in the long run because i can focus on ashtanga and primary series more, and also kids.. but that could take a lot of time.. so i'm going to keep on going with the raw food busines. and just make as much food as possible, buy as many supplies as possible and go into the raw!</div><div>that could take time too, things move really slow in the kootneys...</div><div><br /></div><div>then i came home, had some pre-soaked bentonite clay which is doing majikal things to my body right now.. and had a salad, and oh gosh i succumed to eating a raw mango bliss ball.. oh gosh, dats, and mango and peaches are a no no on the candida cleanse, i feel drunk from alcohol now, but maybe it's the clay.. not sure.. got to get regulated that's all iknow... candida is a hard thing to balance, especially when you help in a restaurant that is loaded with cooked this and that and sweets, so the raw sweet i made for them to try out, i brough some home for my kiddies, but then oops i had some.. </div><div>like micheal franti says, its' never too late to start your day over..</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>There is a yogathon happening about an hour and a half out of town at the Yasodhara ashram on sunday, i don't have a car, so i will ask all my friends with cars if they want to go.. but i probably won't be able to make it.. it looks like an amazing day.. it's a fundraiser for kids in uganda to get an eco-birthing center (where hiv infection rate from mom to child is like really scarry high) and then they are building a farm and a school, and helping kids do yoga, which is great..</div><div><br /></div><div>here's the awesome organization if you want to read more : </div><div>the event is called Off teh Matt and Into the World..</div><div><br /></div><div><a href="http://offthemattintotheworld.org">http://offthematintotheworld.org </a></div><div><br /></div><div>blessings are all around us.. </div><div><br /></div><div>my daughters came home for lunch today and said no to pizza after reading some green for life inspiring stories from Victoria Boutenko and her experience as a kid eating raw food and being in public school, she has a really good story about how she told the kids at pizza day why she wasn't eating what they were, the fact that the wheat is made of gmo flour where workers had to wear gas masks, the cheese is like seven years old, and the tomatoes are genetically modified and died red with spray and picked green, that was enough for my kids to say mom can we come home for lunch, and i told them i didn't have money for it, so it worked out.. they had some cooked food from the krishna restaurant as a treat.. and raw bliss balls.. with salad, they're coming around .. oh gosh i wish i had it in me to home-school, or a million bucks to take them away from public school and into a better alternative, but we just have to deal with what god gave us right now and make the best of it.. which it could be a lot worse, we could be trying to build a school in uganda and have aids.. </div><div><br /></div>omammahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13875411042254861799noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-640824940190321060.post-75455506346748663252009-11-05T09:46:00.001-08:002009-11-05T10:09:39.401-08:00in the rawday three of candida busting and balancing<div><br /></div><div>oh it was a good day yesterday, somuch more energy now that i'm past the first day or two.. did primary series with ease, E3Live has kept me rolling along, and the flax crackers with chia.. oohhh yummm.. and i think i over ate coocnut butter, i must have had a quarter cup that stuff is so good, now i'm going to cut back on oils because there is a lot of evidence that high oil intake feeds these sugar bugs too, thank god for stevia.. </div><div><br /></div><div>i had the most interesting conversation in the health food store yesterday, so many of us were talking about candida, i think it's a post halloween topic too,</div><div><br /></div><div>so today i breathe in light and let go of cravings for sugar, it is really chili out, and i think brisk walks in the cold air are going to help me through this.. i was referring to the whole body ecology book and it is a very interesting book i recommend it for anyone interested in balancing the flora and ecology in their temple.. it says that to balance out candida can actually take up to a year!!! I'm going to go for three months and see how I do.. in the mean time making lots of raw sweets to sell, how bizarre!</div><div><br /></div><div>I'm not decided on weather i should go to india, and or spain, or take this course.. it looks amazing, i think i will take the course no matter what other choice i make, because i want to become more trained and educated in working with kids and facilitating yoga with kids and families.. </div><div>http://www.childrensyoga.com/Workshops/ShaktasSchedule.htm<br /></div><div><br /></div><div>i hope today will bring joy and peace </div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div>omammahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13875411042254861799noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-640824940190321060.post-11098560565078201792009-11-03T22:34:00.000-08:002009-11-03T22:51:43.914-08:00day one of raw candida cleansewoke up a little light today, must have been that amazing enema experience last night, i felt so light, rejuvenated, and ready to salute the sunshine with bliss..<div><br /></div><div>so today was inspiring, i actually suppressed all cravings for sweets.. I had E3Live for breakfast, and E3Live for snack, a tall glass of greener grasses shortly after, -organic high grade organic wheat grass, barley grass, and alfalfa grass... super good stuff.. - it all fueled me to ride my bike in the brisk sunshine and head off to the local Kootney Co-op to talk to the hiring manager. Turns out they all love raw food, and don't have a supplier for their deli! HELLO RAW FOOD GODDESS SUPPLIER HERE I COME!! she was very enthusiastic about my offerings, and especially the potential to do raw pies, cakes and cookies, funny i'm not eating any sweets at the moment, and little nuts> But maybe that is where my inspirational outlet of creativity can pour into.. not eating them, but making them!</div><div><br /></div><div>next was off to Jaganath's kitchen where i help out in the restaurant once a week, it is a nice atmosphere, krishna conscious family, in need of a little help and tlc, they serve almost all cooked food that i don't desire to eat or serve, but it is nice that they are offering it to krishna and trying to buy organic where possible. Also the woman in charge likes it if i make some raw sweets for the sweet display, which i am not that enthusiastic about all the mouth watering sweet cakes, cookies, and ladhus, which i know are not the highest food i'd like to be offering.. so it was fun to make raw mango coconut bliss balls and see them fly off the plate, everyone loved them.. because raw food is so tasty people just adore the delectables.. even if they don't 'like' raw food, or understand the life changing benefits to a live food lifestyle..</div><div><br /></div><div>so there i was making raw sweets and not able to eat them, that was my first test.. then i went home and had the nicest yummiest fennel salad with lemon juice and tomato and avocado..</div><div><br /></div><div>took the girls to town and we went back to the jaganaths restaurant, because they just love to eat there, big treat for them.. and then i sat there drinking water,, and off we were to the sauna and pool! oh the sauna is a great agent for cleansing too.. very complementary, may have to do the sauna more often..</div><div><br /></div><div>and upon returning home my tummy grumbled and i drank some herbal tea, and made a delicious sprouted sunflower ginger pate and spread it all over nori sheets and made some yummy nori wraps, one of my favorite things.. take a nori sheet some nice salad, any veggies really, kale works, sprouts work, avocado, tomato cucumber, i like radishes in mine, if you want to get real fancy throw in some cayenne pepper... and for desert.. ah yes there has to be some sort of desert.. aloe vera juice and i just couldn't help but take a little coconut butter, by the spoonful, this is proving to be my craving quencher! </div><div><br /></div><div>and now i feel amazing, another 100% raw day.. </div><div>the highlight was watching my kids moan and groan for more raw coconut butter, they also loved the raw bliss balls, they're coming around slowly, it's hard to get them off of some of their favorite comfort foods like subji and dhal.. but i think they're pretty stellar kids.. they just love my flax crackers too, i can't get them to stop eating them! so we made more tonight, and i threw in some psyllium fruit leather.. more blogging about our yummy lunches tomorrow..!</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div>omammahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13875411042254861799noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-640824940190321060.post-76054990029301557822009-11-02T20:40:00.000-08:002009-11-02T21:10:37.155-08:00cleaning inside and out for prana<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjnq-Yk5IrZ2I8SLIX08QsXKAZPFDVipvhv3UE6UB2zgX9X5vzYiWV_3U8FwMdL7AVnE_Z4vhh289KXxJZ7CB_RMfUZO9YBrx6JcpQkf3hiXRl1t8Lc7xkj2OLHmAyoX5A_7b6xIf4NaXpk/s1600-h/CAM_3809.JPG"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 400px; height: 300px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjnq-Yk5IrZ2I8SLIX08QsXKAZPFDVipvhv3UE6UB2zgX9X5vzYiWV_3U8FwMdL7AVnE_Z4vhh289KXxJZ7CB_RMfUZO9YBrx6JcpQkf3hiXRl1t8Lc7xkj2OLHmAyoX5A_7b6xIf4NaXpk/s400/CAM_3809.JPG" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5399737663267685954" /></a>Here is a picture of my little booth last summer as Omamma live foods, i've decided to change my name to Prana Foods ~ foods for life ~ The moss street market was where this picture is from, my dear friend Mahatma and I were selling raw dehydrated organic vegan crackers and cookies and balls. as you can see it was very grass roots display, and i was really winging it. People loved our offerings and we sold out every week! I'm working on bringing production back to life after a little rejuvenation time i've been taking...and after moving my kids half way across the province, no more than half way.. all the way... Anyways, I talked to a woman today about a great kitchen space! very exciting.. but first an update on other ways of healing taking place in this temple I call Menaka....<br /><div><br />today was a blessed day for my cholon, we had a lovley date with warm water, i feel a great deal of clarity already, i think i'll do enemas three times a week it feels so good to clean out that area> Now enema's and cholonics are a bit different, cholonics go a little further.. here's matt monarch's talk about that if you're interested <a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J4eos3ftcPo">Enemas Vs. Colonics, Episode #196 </a>he is a great inspiration to me on various subjects.. i particularly like how he animates cholon cleansing.. <div><br /></div><div>and if you're nervous of the thought, it's really not that bad at all, its great, it's fantastic, best ever..so far..</div><div><br /><div> i'm going to start blogging about my candida cleanse that i will be on for six weeks, gabriel cousisn of tree of life and matt monarch inspired me on this adventure after their phone interview about awakening the kundalini, it really hit home to me that i need to fast for a while.. i'll be eating no fruit, no sugar, no startch., no ferments.. darn i love ferments.. I'll be taking in lots of greens, alkalizing veggies... green juices, e3live, wheat grass, herbs teas, grapefruit seed extract, chagga mushroom, oil of oregano.. enemas and bentonite clay with pysillium... this is going to be major... probiotics are in order.. i may be doing some quinoa, sprouted and cooked.. but want to stay as raw as possible.. oh and no caffein, dandelion tea is pretty tasty.. and nettles...</div><div>i tried to start a week ago, but crashed flat into dates and banana's, so i did some research, and have a whole plan and regime in place, with some good support too.. I had no idea how major candida imbalance is and how many sympotms i have that all point to candida overgrowth, the key here is finding a balance so i don't eat a whole tray of raw chocolate and a whole bowl of dates.. i would like to see my mind get a bit more clear, and my skin to feel a lot more glowy too, so those are some of the rewards, what to speak of a sparkling immune system and digestive tract... </div><div><br /></div><div>so here we go, embarking on a clean the temple inside out adventure, </div><div><br /></div><div>i'll be one busy yogi while i'm doing this major cleanse, re- starting my raw food business Prana Food.. and looking to teach yoga here in the koots, oh and there is that blessing of taking care of my darling goddesses.. so busy so full of life, got to pace myself and get out to those hot springs!</div><div><br /></div></div></div>omammahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13875411042254861799noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-640824940190321060.post-54390780654276171732009-11-01T16:23:00.001-08:002009-11-01T16:30:14.240-08:00times are a changinhere we are, another halloween come and gone, it was a fun event, filled with lanterns, and costumes, mountains, story telling at the stone circle, photos were not taken, it was an in the moment evening, we had a pretty witch a god fairy, a pirate and a full moon to guide the way..<div><br /></div><div>i woke up this morning not knowing that the time changed, i woke up feeling very tired, but didn't realize i actually gained an our in the day, how interesting, now it is like four thirty and getting dark, how interesting this winter will be.. i think we'll be going to the pool and sauna a lot to keep the fire alive, and to keep the light inside.. </div><div><br /></div><div>so i'm looking at raw recipies, what to offer to the nelson comunity, i'm thinking simple, crackers and nori sticks to start, snacks, sweets to come later, i mean sweets are so well over rated, i'm doing a candida cleanse and i am comitted to two months of no more sugars.. no fruit, no sweets or starch, little cooked grains, like quinoa amaranth, maybe some warming soups, it will be challenging to say the least, but witha littlel lE3 live, and some herbs i think i'm good to go.. </div><div><br /></div><div>I hope the candida busting will help bring some added clarity to my life, and a fixed determination to go to spain and india this coming february. For ten years i've dreamed of india and it is now manifesting before my eyes, the doors are opening, i just have to work hard and stay really clear and focused.</div><div><br /></div><div>so the times are a changing, this momma is going to take a well deserved break, dad will enter stage left and i'll become a nomad yogi for a couple months, following my dreams .. and hoping to bring the kids along soon after.. One month in the Mysore yoga shala will do this mind and body some good, and i can offer all i learn to all my students, it is going to be very wonderful for my soul, i need this nourishment, as do my kids.. </div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div>omammahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13875411042254861799noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-640824940190321060.post-16324519685154584312009-10-26T10:34:00.000-07:002009-10-26T10:38:52.159-07:00remembering summer<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhL3mQ5-B3g7-d-IndXSoG5AMUvszg2oFPLNtBLXIPJUHcC-ljY21NTSuvgjcxMBvCt5F5S2mbvlc2qs8LbSR7rv130NlbsWY8bQNbLgTkaVmcF8rp7hzLKfIVVbAEQo4pWENuBbjxLb8UZ/s1600-h/CAM_3661.JPG"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 400px; height: 300px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhL3mQ5-B3g7-d-IndXSoG5AMUvszg2oFPLNtBLXIPJUHcC-ljY21NTSuvgjcxMBvCt5F5S2mbvlc2qs8LbSR7rv130NlbsWY8bQNbLgTkaVmcF8rp7hzLKfIVVbAEQo4pWENuBbjxLb8UZ/s400/CAM_3661.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5396964361679053554" border="0" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj7qorte9OVnTXTlLw3eX77TCdSAFuhNOYR1mKxvGgfIgxAuEfpIXEmJJiDSVkQThYEMcMdEGSk8_4QBjXMwPbeoQvT2PbdG13y7vdlEpmviJ-6zccsm0NxnEXb67aKM_szLt5Vz0ULh8c8/s1600-h/CAM_3669.JPG"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 400px; height: 300px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj7qorte9OVnTXTlLw3eX77TCdSAFuhNOYR1mKxvGgfIgxAuEfpIXEmJJiDSVkQThYEMcMdEGSk8_4QBjXMwPbeoQvT2PbdG13y7vdlEpmviJ-6zccsm0NxnEXb67aKM_szLt5Vz0ULh8c8/s400/CAM_3669.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5396964355085142962" border="0" /></a><br />as the snow falls i remember summer, how loving and rich it was...i keep this fire burning.. this agni.. and never forget the many blessings each season brings.. the clear white beauty and the warm rich fire,omammahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13875411042254861799noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-640824940190321060.post-39311416264289135802009-10-24T21:59:00.000-07:002009-10-24T23:13:48.873-07:00about my journey as a yogini and a mommatoday i begin a journey, having read so many blogs of dear friends, attempted a blog on my own a few times, this is a fresh new path for this lover of life. I have been on a journey for some time now, before i can remember, a soul journey, a quest for the truth, always unfolding in so many ways. When i least expected i would find answers krishna, or god, or the great spirit what every you want to call it, him/her, i call it Krishna.. or Sri Radha.. they sent me angles with wings and opened doors to a higher taste, a higher love than can be found in this world, in this body, in these senses, Love for god, love for the Goddess and her beloved, in so many different ways. <div><br /></div><div>I have been a mother now for almost ten years, and my dear darling daughters have taught me so many things, about myself and about what love is, about compassion, and sometimes anger and frustration too. Their fathers, have taught me so much about letting go and letting god, and given me many blessings and much to be thankful for. I feel so honored and humbled to be these kids mother, having only been 19 as i began this journey now i am approaching thirty and finally figuring out myself, where i am destined to endeavor to serve beyond motherhood. My recent break up from an 8 year relationship led me to a deep dark hole of depression, loss, grief, and with that a new awakening, a rebirth .. to love life, and accept my karma, my offerings as mercy and grace. I healed my depression with vitamins and herbs, yoga, counseling, friends, bike riding and just diving right into it and not being afraid to face what it was that was making me sad. i now chant with great faith.. This is your way, this is your grace.... I still have my moments when i forget this, and have to remind myself to really let god in, i remember to chant this with gratitude, and i remember to chant with reverence for this life, i too forget sometimes in the midst of a temper tantrum, and then i thank god for my yoga practice, for the six months of rigorous ashtanga yoga practice i have been committed to, and to the many triumphs in life i have overcome. I am really thankful for the little blessing of Jenni from the Victoria Yoga Shala http://www.theyogashala.ca/ who took me on as a poor single momma student this year, with back problems, skin problems, depression, and a messed up left hip and neck. She had faith in me.. and i feel so alive now from the teachings she passed on to me from Guruji, Sri K Patabhi Jois. I also thank my children's father Ramanath who lovingly cared for the kids during this time so I could be at Mysore practice for 6:30 am.. I feel it was no coincidence that Patabi Jois passed on from the body of this life the very day we started our Yoga teacher Training, and no co-incidence that Jenni and I both love chanting and Kirtan so much. I hope to one day go to Mysore India and learn from Guruji's family and build on what I continue to teach and grow with. I know this is not a one shot course deal, i will always be learning, always training, and find joy and peace in the dedication and practice. This path of Yoga Chakitsa, or Yoga therapy ... has been so complimentary to my already active living of Bhkati Yoga.. Ashtanga yoga has helped me to find a way of healing, to tap into my inner strength and return to my breath. I hope to share some of this with you through this blog. It is a 6 day a week practice of what is known as the Primary Series that i have surprisingly committed myself to, i say surprisingly because when i got on the mat in the beginning of my training i was sure i was going to fail, and thought this was way to hard for this body, but now i feel more power than ever before, the balance i need when life gives me curve balls is now coming from within, and the struggles bring an awakening into my ever unfolding expansion and humility, an opportunity to grow. </div><div><br /></div><div>I pray at the lotus feet of my many gurus for some way to serve my fellow beings, to serve this mother earth, to serve god's beloved children, and i have forgotten so many times to serve myself.. this year has taught me to take that time, because in the end what good are we to others, especially children, if we are not able to love ourselves? </div><div><br /></div><div>I learned so much also working at Cafe Bliss in Victoria http://cafebliss.ca .. a lovely little raw food juice bar and cafe. Which has its roots coming from the lovely Heather and her family who have all trained and spent time at places like The Tree Of Life http://www.treeoflife.nu/home-index/and Hippocrates Health Institute. I now day dream to go to Tree Of Life Rejuvenation Center in six months and do some seva... all from that inspiration of Heather and her loving family, and a lot of good books and videos i've been checking out of Dr. Gabriel Cousins. I am here in the Kootney's to be a karma yogi and manifest a living foods restaurant/ juice bar along side a yoga space in Nelson for the community. It is so important to dream and vision, because that's how all good things manifest.. so i'm on a year of visioning and manifesting quest.I'm starting this blog to share and care and honor the many blessings, because a spring of knowledge dwells within this little family, and a seed has been planted, a creeper that is growing as i remember to water it carefully. <div><br /></div><div> My family has lived all over BC. in yurts, in cabins on islands, in mountains, in forests, in cities, on creeks, by oceans, near lakes, and so many lovely beings have given me hope, and courage to overcome my fears, and seeming challenges. I hope to share their beauty here too. I am grateful for this opportunity to share, for the road to be wide open . My life thus far has been a nomadic yogini life in the arms of Beautiful BC, and yet I feel i have hardly scratched the surface of nomadism.</div><div><br /></div><div>Symbiotically with the yoga and nomadism, I began a living foods revolution this year, slowly incorporating live / raw foods into my families diet, and while I have been vegetarian and healthy conscious organic granola vegan loving -but not allways practicing vegan- for almost twelve years, - it was last year when i was in california visiting Amma http://amma.org and then My Srila Gurudev Narayan Maharaj http://purebhakti.com that i became so inspired by witnessing living foods lifestyle flourish in a spiritual, devotional, and family way, that i knew then on my way home to Canada, i needed to do something about this inspiration! It started with green smoothies, going to raw food potlucks, reading books, going to wicked lectures, ph balanced water, big bountiful salads and raw pizza, raw detox cleansing, and hanging out at cafe bliss as much as possible until Heather gave me a job there. I was especially inspired by the lively people who i was given the opportunity to be meeting while camping at a spiritual retreat in the high desert mountains of Badger California. Oh how those Yogi Bhajan devotees of http://www.theblissbar.org/index.php in cali just delight me with their aura's, and their darling daughter who shines so bright! My godbrother Madhavananda from maui http://vibrantlifeservices.com inspired me with his delectables, good advice, ayurvedic approach and years of experience traveling and setting up kitchens and manifesting product lines.. My kids adored Victoira and Valya Boutenko's talk in Victoria this year, and if it weren't for the http://rawfamily.com i don't think my kids would drink spinach and banana for breakfast!!! We also got some good family laughs and giggles of inspiration at a Raw Fest in Ottawa Ontario of all places, with the lovely speakers Matt Monarch and Angela Stokes-Monarch (who's rawfoodworldtv show on youtube rocks btw) And then there is the ever so inspiring David Wolf and the very enlightening works of Gabriel Cousins. All of these warriors of health shed a wealth of knowledge and years of experience into my awakening to thrive and not survive. I recently did a workshop with Danielle Vitalis about medicinal mushrooms and live spring water, and his whole Thrive not Survive mentality is really gaining momentum here in Canada, I'm now practicing surthrival not survival.. All of this amazing association has given me a new kind of love. I am in love with the living foods movement and the spiritual aspect we can bring to the food we offer to the lord and our brothers and sisters. </div><div><br /></div><div>My kids love raw food now too, maybe not as much as i do. They helped me do a raw food business we call OmAmma at a local farmers market in Victoria this past year, and the feed back was phenomenal, i honestly couldn't keep up with the demand. We're refining our business plan to form a co-operative, and make a bigger impact.. . . these kiddies knew they were part of something special, and we are continuing to make goodies together as much as possible. I'm stoked every time i see them munch on my dehydrated crackers/ 'cookies', buckwheaties, sprouts, or when they practically beg me to make raw nut milks and creams .. I knew all that Kale they were growing as little Hare Krishna kids and eating out straight of the garden would lead us somewhere special.</div><div><br /></div><div> Well here we are, on a raw spirit quest, a yogini mamma journey.. This blog is open to all walks of life to read and share, I am so new to this lifestyle that I am eager to learn, share and co-create the beauty and abundance we all need to Surthrive and Love. I hope this offering can be that of an open canvas with no limits.... Blessed Be, all glories to the divine essence in you and in me, Jai Sri Radhe, the most worshipable goddess of love and devotion, who we pray to for her mercy and service.. namaste</div></div>omammahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13875411042254861799noreply@blogger.com0